New baby? Or no baby? A new baby brings so much joy to an expecting mother and father. There is so much anticipation to see what the baby looks like, whose eyes it has, and for some, what the gender will be! I have experienced this excitement twice, and hope I can experience it one or two more times. But sometimes, just sometimes, I am not thinking of having another baby at all!!

I do want another baby:

When everyone is quietly eating together at dinner time.

I don’t want another baby:

When all the food at the table gets sneezed on.

I do want another baby:

When my boys hold hands and help each other.

The older brother is helping the younger brother.

I don’t want another baby:

When my boys are fighting and pushing each other.

I do want another baby:

When we all snuggle in my bed for an hour reading books.

I don’t want another baby:

When I remember I had to wake up every 3 hours for the baby.

A new mother just wants to sleep!

A new mother just wants to sleep!

I do want another baby:

When I realize I’m forgetting the sound of precious baby babel.

I don’t want another baby:

When the 3 year old yells and doesn’t listen.

I do want another baby:

When I remember how a newborn fits perfectly on the lap.

A newborn fits perfectly on his mother's lap.

A newborn fits perfectly on his mother’s lap.

I don’t want another baby:

When my son jumps from the side of the couch onto my head.

I do want another baby:

When I laugh with my kids.

I don’t want another baby:

When I think about contractions and labor pains.

I do want another baby:

Thinking about cuddling and the forced relaxation breast feeding brings.

Forced relaxation from breast feeding.

Forced relaxation and cuddles.

I don’t want another baby:

Thinking about breast feeding while the baby is teething.

I do I do I do:

Holding little hands and little feet

The first smile

Watching their personalities develop as they grow up

Reaching milestones

 

The truth is, even with all the struggles that motherhood brings, I ultimately want a big family. Right now however, I will try to do the best I can with my 2 wonderful boys. What a great life I have right now!

In the far future, maybe I’ll be blessed with a little girl.

Let’s live life as it comes. And enjoy whatever stage we are in.

 

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